Why I Am Staying In The Philippines

For those of you that read this blog and are not friends of mine on Facebook these past couple of weeks have been crazy. I have been all over the place and really just trying to follow God’s will in my life. At one moment I had broken down into a pool of tears and snot. Not the kind of days I like to have. But, god was there the entire time. Here goes what happened. 

On March 10th I resigned my post at the ministry I had been interning at and later that night I booked my flight back to America. What followed was the biggest battle in my life. My heart and my desire is to be in the Philippines but I was planing on going home and nothing was going to change my mind. It came down to the night of March 17th. I had everything packed and ready to go. I had received a text message from a friend. I had to sit down an really think about what I was doing. Eventually I canceled my flight and stayed here in the Philippines.

I had people all around me giving advice, praying alongside me, and listening to what I was going through. Others being blunt in what I should do. I had those telling me to go back to the states, others telling me I need to stay. Once I heard that my family did not need me at home to help them with things I had to tune out the world and take time to myself and with God to see the correct path. In the end it was not the right time to leave the Philippines and that God still has plans for me here.

In the week since I decided to stay things have been wonderful. I have had so much joy in my life and the only way to describe it is that it is coming from God. I have an amazing community of people here in Cebu that is here for me and praying for me often. I do not know all the reasons why god has left me here in the Philippines, I do not know how I am going to support my living expenses here. I do know that this is where God has called me to be. This is where my heart is. My heart is for the Philippines. I do know that since God has called me to stay here that He will provide everything I need. Some may call me crazy, I say it is living by faith. 

I look forward to what God is going to do next here in my life in the Philippines and I will be glad to share it with you here on this blog.